- h0ney’s world of wordz -

yesterday, we were given our Chemistry test paper. yay! i got 78% for it.. well, it was not very very good but i was quite happy with the result. =) after class, i went for the movie ‘Rob-B-Hood’ at 1utama. it was a very funny and nice movie. i enjoyed it so much. =P

few days ago, my sis came back from abu dhabi. wow, she bought us a lot of things. she bought me a mini skirt from topshop.. it was quite short for me, i wonder where should i wear it to. other than that, she even bought me and my sister bikini suits from Women’s Secret. it was nice, but………i dun dare wear it ehhhh.. *shy shy* =P i’ll keep it until the day i have the guts to wear it. hahah! im really jealous of my sis, she earns a lot of money now. she enjoys her job, she can even work in other countries, meet people with different cultures… hmm… i always wonder if i have the chance to be like her. sometimes i’ll start to be worried when i think about my future.. i don’t know what should i do in the future. i dun even have an ambition. im worried that i will not be able to get a job that i enjoy. i mean, many ppl nowadays dun enjoy their work. most of them are forced to do the job that they are doing. im scared i’ll be like them one day. hmmm…. =(

recently, my 2nd ex contact me.. i was so surprised that he msg me and chat with me. before this, we didn’t break up peacefully. i scolded him at the day we broke up, and since then, we never contact until now.. i wonder what is his intention of contacting me now. he’s like wanna be good with me. well, are all boys like this??? my 1st ex was like this once.. and now my 2nd ex. boys, pls dun treat ur girls good after breaking up… u should appreciate ur gf when u’re together, but not after separating!! get it??!

gosh, i’ve run out of money.. it’s the end of the month. i dun even have the courage to tell my dad about it. cos he’ll sure ask me to move out and find a room outside instead of staying at mum’s house. he dun like me staying at mum’s house!!! =’( i cannot understand what he’s thinking.. what is wrong staying with my own mum? im already 18, i have the right to decide what i wan to do. well well well… whatever.. the only way i can do now is saving money. i have to cut down on my expenses. =\ hmm.. both my elder and younger sisters will go back to Kemaman tomorrow.. they’ll go back for 1 week. many of my frens asking me going back to Kemaman to celebrate Mooncake Festival together, but guys, i dun have holiday, so i can’t go back… sorry to you all.. chen ling, sze kai, quinz, jun long, cheng haw, yu ren and wei xuan.. im sorry that i cannot go back…. im sure u guys can celebrate it happily without me also.. =)

today 22nd september is a very special day to me.. how special? mm.. it’s very very special. =P there are two reasons making this day so special.. 1st, i finally forgave my best fren. 2nd… mmmm… well im gonna keep the 2nd reason to myself, not gonna say it here. in a word, i feel happy today. =)

after my class today, my sis wanted me to drive to KLCC so that we can go back home afterwards. but then, i waited for her for about 5 hours in KLCC. i myself walked alone in the big mall.. waiting for her to finish her dinner with frens. i got so damn tired after few hours of walk. my legs are still killing me now.. -_-" poor me….

i dunno why but i feel scared to accept others’ love. whenever a boy asks me to be his gf, i’d think a lot of things.. e.g, will we break up after i accept him? will i not treat him good after i accept him? will we face problems like we dun have transports n cannot meet often? will we face financial problems? will we be apart someday like he’s going overseas to further his studies or something? will he treat me bad and hurt me? etc etc… i’d keep questioning myself. perhaps, this is all because of my unpleasant experiences. i got hurt by both of my ex bfs before this.. i might be too innocent. i mistrusted them.. they hurt me so bad that i cried my lung out everyday, everynight.. n i had almost gone insane. it was so hard for me to go through the traumas. and now, im scared of falling in love. im scared of accepting others’ love…  *sigh*.. love is never sweet to me. love hurts… don’t u agree?

im so confused… i need some time to make up my mind.. i dun wanna make a rush decision like what i did last time. i’ll think it over and i hope… i can get u an answer as soon as possible..

phew… finally, i finished my test today. finally… i can watch tv and online and do whatever i wan now.. hahah! BUT too bad.. i cannot relax too much, cos my final exam is coming.. it’s in the month of November. *sigh* =(

today after my class, i went to the Pizza Hut to have my dinner with a fren of mine. after that, we went to watch the movie ‘Ghost Game’ at 1utama. well, it’s scary but……. the story is not as nice as expected. i dun really like the movie. lame movie…… -_-"

after the movie, we went back home. something happened when i fetched my fren back home.. it was so unexpected. im not going to tell what exactly has happened.. in a word, it was a shocking one. but, i felt quite happy with that particular thing. it was very unforgettable. =)

few days ago, i called my best fren. she told me that she was not single anymore.. i was very happy for her cos she has found someone who loves and cares her a lot. im quite sure that the guy will bring her happiness. well, dear best fren, wish u happy with that guy.. all da best to both of u~ =)

it’s saturday again. yeah im only staying at home today.. not hanging out. since my test is on, i dun have the mood to go out.

recently, i realised that a lot of frens reading my blog. i dunno why but they told me my blog is nice to read.. hmm… well thank u guys for reading it. =) i dunno whether is this considered as good onot.. cos i thought a blog is like a diary. i thought i could write anything i wan in my blog.. anything about my life, my frens, family, studies and even about my love life. but since a lot of ppl reading it, i cannot write too much.. i mean, who will wan to tell everyone about his/her secrets. of course i will still write something about my life, but i’ll still keep some of my secrets.. not gonna write it here. hehe.. =P

aiks.. im supposed to do my revision now. why am i sitting in front of the pc and online now eh?? =\ *sigh*.. tests tests tests………..nobody likes tests/exams

I LOVE YOU. are these three words hard to be said?? these 3 words are just that simple. yet, how many of u dare say it to the person u love???

if u like/love somebody, u should let him/her know. just tell him/her that u love him/her. dun be shy to say it out. there’s nothing wrong to love a person. if u lose the chance to say it, u’ll regret in the future. believe me, u will regret it. things will change after time passes. things will not be the same anymore after that. there will not be a lot of chances for u to confess to somebody. especially when u are a guy, u should not hesitate but to say ‘I LOVE YOU’ to the girl u love now!! well, girls are usually shy, so it’s okay if girls do not say it out first. but guys! guys should not be shy!! u are not a guy if you dun even have the courage to say ‘I LOVE YOU’ to the girl u adore. dun be afraid to be rejected… u should be happy because u expressed urself. at least you have let her know that she’s important in ur heart.

when u love a person, it does not mean u have to own him/her. when u love a person, u wan the person to be happy. u dun do things that will hurt him/her. you will always treat him/her good even if u’re not accepted. you will try to bring happiness to the person no matter how. this is what ‘love’ means. so everyone, say it out.. tell him/her that u love him/her. who knows, he/she may be liking u at the same time..=)

—h0neyxian 2oo6— LOVE

holiday’s over~~ this is the 2nd week of study. my test is on now.. oh god, i was late for my MUET test that day.. and the result was, i couldn’t finish my essay.. damn…. =’( and today, i had my Maths1 test.. again, i couldn’t finish answering the questions.. hmmm, useless me.

on the national day, i went to IKANO power centre with my best fren, Coey and two of my frens from college. i thought we could reach the place before 12am, but it was soooooooooooooo damn jam around IKANO. and when i was still on my way, suddenly the fireworks blast off in the sky. wow i was so happy to see the fireworks!! i parked my car beside the road and 4 of us straight away got down to watch the beautiful fireworks.. it lasted for more than 5 minutes. this was the most beautiful fireworks i had ever seen. =) after having some drinks at McDonald, we went back home. Coey stayed at my house that night. we kept talking and talking on the bed for few hours.. hahah! we talked about our secrets, who she likes, who i like.. (well, just normal stuff that girls will talk about.=P ) heehee..it was nice. this indicate that we can still be very good n close even though we had not been meeting for few months. u’re my best buddy, love u dear yong~