depressed
yes.. im feeling very down. nobody can be my good listener, that’s why im here to write my blog again.
i’ve been crying for whole night yesterday. actually, i cried from yesterday night until today morning. he cannot understand me.. as im taking the medicine everyday now, i dun feel good EVERYDAY. my whole body, especially my stomach and my breasts suffer from pain. he is supposed to understand my situation and care me more at this moment, but not getting angry and talk so badly to me! i was having a bad stomach ache yesterday night.. crying, holding my stomach and struggling on the bed in the middle of the night, i sms him for 4 times, i needed him so much. but i saw no reply from him. when i needed him most, he was never there for me. at 4am when i was already asleep, he replied me a cold + short sms. i was extremely disappointed to receive such reply from him…. i felt so so so depressed.
i dunno why but since i’ve started taking the medicine (or maybe because i am not able see him during this holiday), my temper becomes bad. i get mad at him almost everyday. we almost quarrel everyday. and slowly, our relationship becomes worse… we never talk nicely to each other now. im really tired… i’ve tried so so hard to keep this relationship good. i tried to talk properly to him just now.. and hope to settle the problems. but his response was not good at all!!! he seemed to not understand what i said!! oh god, what can i do now???? i’ve done what i should do. i can feel the pain in my heart now. somebody’s like keep stabbing my heart with a sharp knife.. can he heal my broken heart? i need some comfort and care from him.. but why does it seem like it’s impossible for me to get them from him? gosh.. i cry whenever i read his msg now. i dun wanna read his msg anymore.. the words he type are hurting me.. my eyes are heavy and im already tired of crying… sigh.. hope we can be as good as before.
December 14th, 2006 at 2:52 am
dunno wat should say…but juz take it easy,everything will be fine in the end.
anyway,christmas is coming,let bring bak ur great mood to celebrate X’mas o…k^^?!
erm…take care ur health n merry christmas….
December 16th, 2006 at 7:07 am
Hey, i hope you din’t forget that i’m still here. You can always come to me whenever you like, if you don’t mind, that is…
I really can’t find the words to express the sadness and sorrowness i feel when i read through this blog of yours.
I thought you were happy with him, I never imagine things can go so bad. When i read this, I hav to admit that i’m kinda mad coz he’s not treating you well.
About your medication, is there any other alternatives? I’m so sorry to hear that….
I can’t promise to be a very good listener, but i’ll try my best, so if you need anything, anything at all, pls don hesitate to contact me yeah? I juz want to help, no bad intentions, promise ^.^
Take care, c u back in college!
January 20th, 2007 at 6:03 am
you have the same problem that i had last time..mine 1 settle already..1 thing very important..must be patient..girls are always treat bf like that..but a good gf or wife will always understand her bf or hubby..
last time i also din see him for 3 or 4 months..almost quarrel everyday..but now settle n happy already..no matter whoever wrong,that’s the person u love..no matter how quarrel,u still will forgive him..so,just save the time together n energy and forgive him..just to share with u,cos tat is what i have learnt from him…